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Saturday, October 29, 2022

We got the Fairy Tale

You know what's funny, a lot of people think I am perky. I had a snotty colleague once in my career use it as an insult. But the people who really know me, like my family, know that I am actually really melancholy. See, I am one of those artistic souls who feels tortured at times. I am an artist of sorts. I mean I teach writing and have a Master of Arts. I think I just feel things deeper than most. But the thing is - that is me being stupid. I have had such a blessed life and need to have more gratitude about it. 

I had lunch with a dear friend from my PhD program Thursday. She is one of the SMARTEST people I know. I am lucky to know her. And I really admire her. To me, she has the Fairytale. I told her that. I said,  "I was just trying for the Fairytale."  I was. I said, "You got the Fairytale."  She is smart, gorgeous, has a great job, has beautiful kids, and has a great husband. 

But the doctor wisely said, "Molly - no one has the fairytale." And you know what? The doctor was right. 

But she and I do have a Fairytale life. We are PhDs. Work at top universities. We both do jobs that we love and work with beautiful souls. So here is a reminder to both her and myself: we do have the Fairytale, but the truth of the matter is, sometimes life is just hard, even in Fairytales. I mean really, sometimes Fairytales are down right freaky scary. Let's be honest.  

But thank you my dear, dear friend for being there through the statistic classes in which I struggled and now in life when I do the same. But this story is not over. Man sometimes I wish those Fairies in the forest would give me a break! :)


Sunday, October 23, 2022

Gen X Women

So it is a very strange time to be a Gen X woman. I was born in 1973. We had a very small class. The birth control pill was created in 1967 and Roe vs. Wade was the year I was born. Thank goodness my mom and dad were Catholic. I was not planned. 

But I do think it a very bizarre experience to be of a generation of women who had more rights than any other women in American history. I feel like I need to remind all of my Gen X female friends about this. We have to make sure that we ensure our daughters and granddaughters have freedoms like we did. We cannot let this go backward. It is. 

We need to keep our voice and keep fighting for women and all the social justice issues of our time. Don't take your freedom for granted. I won't either. People have fought a hard fight for this. We cannot let them take our rights away. Our daughters and granddaughters deserve better. 

Peace! 


Thursday, October 20, 2022

The Crucifix on the Tightrope

 The Crucifix on the Tightrope by mks


It’s so crazy

How our lives get entangled

With others, who affect us deeply.

It’s as if it’s really out of our hands.

Part of the grand design, by some intelligent being. 

Then why does it always seem to be so hard?

Today a minister told me wisely

that “tragedy is not from God.

And we may never know the why.

Or if we do, we find out later down the road.”

She is right.

She said, “This is just evil in the world.

But we must not also forget the good.”

It is quite the balancing act —

One at which I struggle —

Wobbling on the highwire

Trying to hold the pole

Like a crucifix

Twenty feet up in the air with unsure footing

About to fall myself,

At least I have a net 

To keep me from below.

“Embrace the struggle like Jesus did,”

She said.

“His life did not end there.

In fact, it offered a new beginning

To rise again, different,

Healed. 

Resurrected to help others.”

To help us.

To help me.

To help you. 

One foot in front of the other,

Toes gripping the wire,

Outstretched hands carrying the weight of the wood,

My ballerina body in a leotard for all to judge, 

In order to hopefully make it someday to the other side.

Saturday, September 24, 2022

Hope is the tattoo on my ankle - Thanks Cecilia Maria Cosmetic Tattoos

"Hope is the thing with feathers" -- Emily Dickinson

Hope is the thing with feathers

That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune without the words,
And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me. -- Dickinson

I had heard of this poem of course in my lifetime, but the first time I really connected with it was when my Teaching Assistant SE Riley had it tattooed on her arm.  The student schooled the teacher, and I never again forgot this line of poetry. 

Fast forward a few years, and feathers became a spiritual totem to me. I grew up with birds. My sister had a bird - Romeo. He was blue. I think a parakeet. He actually made me terrified of birds. He'd get loose in our house, and freaked me out when he’d fly around with that wing span trapped in the four rooms of our human world. Then my Aunt and Cousin who helped raise me also loved birds. They had all kinds. My mom and dad also had a bird - Bubba. Growing up, he was a big part of our lives. But I never cared for birds due to this Romeo. I’ve never been good with those Romeos. ;) 

As I started having my own kids, I never wanted them to touch feathers. We live pretty close to the city, so we have pigeons sometimes. Or doves I suppose. But I was afraid feathers from them carried diseases. So, I never let my own children play with them. I did have a nephew who loved feathers also - especially of hawks. My nephew also has passed, so maybe some of these feathers are from him. Ya never know. 

But when my father died in 2018, a very strange phenomenon started happening. It seemed that everywhere I went, I saw feathers on the ground. I started researching this, and legend says this is symbolic of your guardian angel around you. So now I love feathers. I pick them up when I can, and I see them everywhere. It makes me believe and know heaven exists and that my dad is with me. My dad loved nature. He was a master gardener from Michigan Satae University and passed on the Fall equinox. I also saw a rainbow six days after his death on his birthday that year. Thanks dad for showing me that heaven is real. I’m forever a believer now. 

I shared this story with my tattoo artist friend, Cecilia, and she and I decided to create one for my ankle, so that my dad would be with me always. Cecilia listened and designed exactly what I wanted. She tattooed it on my ankle a week ago. People keep asking me if it was painful. I always look at them and say, "not as painful as three child births." No, it was not too bad at all. My daughter came and held my hand. She is so sweet. 

Cecilia got into tattooing to help women. She does cosmetic tattoos for cancer survivors and other medical patients. She also does tattoos for crazy people like me going through a breakup and a challenging life situation. Her tattoo shop is spotless and clean. She is feminine and respects you. She is medically certified, so you are safe. I will never go anywhere else for a tattoo. She is part of the Tend and Flourish Women's Cooperative in Dayton, Ohio, on Brown Street near the University of Dayton. 

This experience was cathartic for me. I know some of my friends and family don't understand tattoos, but that's okay. There are parts of their lives I don't understand. It was healing and got the pain out from a hard thing I have been going through. It also reminds me of my dad and eternal life. 

Thanks SE Riley and Cecilia Maria Cosmetic Tattoos. Keep healing and helping people like you already do. Thanks for helping me get my wings and fly. Forever a Flyer! 

Ce

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Tuesday, August 30, 2022

Day Yoga Studio Ayurvedic Massage

So I had a lucky weekend. A few things happened. One was that Devon Schmidt of Day Yoga Studio needed volunteers for a class she teaches in Dayton, Ohio. I got one of two spots and had an Ayurvedic Massage on Sunday. It was very healing and spiritual. Thank you Devon and Team. I feel the Divine Feminine in your shop and business. I hope it brings you all many blessings as you work to heal people holistically. 

I have gotten a few massages in my life. Honestly, I am not a huge fan all of the time. I am kinda old fashioned, so it is always kinda awkward to have anyone touching me. And deep tissue massages although sometimes do feel great, sometimes they don't. But this massage was totally not like that. I have been going through a ton of stress lately, so I just thought, hey this might help me, and it really did. 

An Ayurvedic Massage is four handed, so there were two women working on me. They started with my feet and worked all the way up to my head and hair. I had to wear my hair down actually. They put Sesame Oil from my toes to my crown. And they worked in unison on both sides of my body. It was not a deep tissue massage at all. It was more a cleansing and healing one. They did repetitions, for example fanning out the massage in an area, in either units of ten or three. They did tickle my toes a bit at the beginning, but I am ticklish.  They even put the Sesame Oil in my crazy, curly, Irish hair, which if you know it, could always use some oil.  First, I laid on my stomach and put my head through the face holder thing at the end of the table. Then I flipped over about half way through. The second part also they worked on my stomach and digestive health.  The entire massage took about sixty minutes, but I walked out feeling so healthy and rejuvenated. They also had me put oil in my nose. Oil is a big part of Ayurvedic Massage I learned. I definitely felt that these women were helping not only my body, but also my spirit and my soul. 

Day Yoga Studio is just a gem. It was my first time there, but it won't be my last. Many of my friends take Yoga and Hot Yoga there. A few friends have taught there. Devon also takes Yoga trips across the globe. What an incredible business in Dayton, Ohio. It is on Brown Street near the University of Dayton. It is one of the old fashioned Dayton homes turned business. The massage room is my favorite color - purple - like a purply blue. You are covered by sheets and blankets the entire time, so that made me feel very comfortable. The sheets were very soft. It was warm in there, like a mother's love.

All in all, this was one of the luckiest events of my life. Thanks Devon and Day Yoga Studio! Namaste. The Divine Feminine is apparent in this business model and only karmic benefits should follow with the love you are putting in the Universe. 

Thursday, August 25, 2022

70x7

So I am in another situation where I am having to find the inner strength to forgive someone for hurting me. 

This is when I turn to my faith. We are taught that God forgives us for our sins. I hope so. No one is perfect. We all have times in our life when we ourselves need forgiveness. 

My Godmother taught me a Bible passage: 

Matthew 18:21-23

The Parable of the Unforgiving Servant

21 Then Peter came up and said to him, “Lord, how often will my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? As many as seven times?” 22 Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you seven times, but seventy-seven times.

23 “Therefore the kingdom of heaven may be compared to a king who wished to settle accounts with his servants.

So, I will work on forgiving this person. It is freeing to do so.  It is healing to do so. People makes mistakes. I just need the strength to actually forgive him now. I keep praying for the Holy Spirit to guide me on this journey. Things take time. 

Tuesday, August 23, 2022

So basically I must be Marge Simpson

 So I was married to Homer and just broke up with Mr. Burns. What is wrong with me? I'm just kidding, sort of. I loved both these men obviously. But see The Simpsons captures so many truths about humanity.  And it is so funny. 

See, I am a Simpsons fanatic, so much so that I even teach a class on it. When I teach the class, I always tell my students, God has a sense of humor. 

But this show is just so hilarious to me for so many reasons. It is no wonder it is the longest running show in American history. 

In my college course, we look at the show through four academic lenses. Obviously English Studies. The other three disciplines are Religious Studies, Philosophy, and Psychology. 

Some Simpsons facts I have learned over the years that I never knew before, even though I am sure we watched Simpsons every night of my college career:

1) The Simpsons talks about Religion more than any other show on television. One of my absolute favorite episodes is when Bart gets sent to Catholic School, and Homer and Bart convert to Catholicism against Marge’s disapproval. Jesus is in the Catholic heaven with Michael Flattley and his Riverdance crew and Mexicans :)!

2) Many of the original writers, one of whom was Conan O'Brien, were Ivy League educated. They intentionally write jokes for the one percent who get them. 

3) And yes the Simpson predicted Trump would run for office - actors, elevator, Melania, and all.

4) And there is that bizarre 9/11 comic book cover. Maybe Matt Groening can actually time travel.  I don’t actually believe that. I think he and the writers just keep paying attention to what is actually happening in our bizarre society.

I personally love The Simpsons because of its brilliant critique of American Capitalism. 

Anyway, I just think that the Simpsons is brilliant. I always thought I was more like Lisa, but maybe I am actually more of a Marge. And I love Marge. Heck she created Lisa. 

Marge is a great woman. She stands by her man. She’s moral. She loves her children. She is a devoted mother and wife and sister. 

See nothing to me is more attractive than intelligence and a sense of humor. And I could not make it through life without laughter. 

"I've learned that life is one crushing defeat after another until you just wish Flanders was dead."

Long live Bart. Eat my shorts man (or men)!